that's why i love you.

i could have anyone else that i actually got to see & talk to every day, but i'd rather be lonely & missing you all the time than settle for less. i am only capable of loving you. every time i even consider searching for someone else, i quickly erase the thought away.

when i'm around you, i don't have to say a word. i just listen intently to every word you say & try to understand you better. & the more i get to know you, the more i love you. i feel like beyonce said, "i love to see you walk in the room, body shining, lighting up the place. & when you talk, everybody stops cause they know you know just what to say." it's like when you walk through the door, the world stops spinning, my heart starts glowing, & my whole aura lights up.

& then when you're gone, i feel the other end of the emotional spectrum. everything inside of me, my whole entire being, hurts like no other. it takes all my strength just to continue on with life.

& that's why i love you. you're the only one that can make me feel anything, let alone such a wide array of emotions.

as long as you're here, i'm never going anywhere. no matter how hard i have to try, or how long i have to wait.

even though you upset me sometimes, i can't envision my life without you.

sometimes i wonder if there's anyone else in the world who feels this way right now, whether it be for you or someone else.

but i know in my heart that nobody could love you more than i do...

no one can question my love for you. never once have i left your side or turned my back on you, & i never will.

even though it may not mean a lot to anyone else, the love that you've shown me is more than i've ever felt before from a romantic standpoint. from day one, you & your brothers welcomed me with open arms & i'm eternally grateful.

sometimes i wonder how long i can go on this way. i feel as if i'm just biding my time, shuffling aimlessly through life until i get to see you. only then do i enjoy myself. it's easy to say that it's unhealthy & i should break my attachment, but i can't. if i were to break it, then i wouldn't even have anything to look forward to.

i know you would have to cut me off first, because i'll never be ready to let go on my own. which is hard because i'm always the first one to push people away. i'm making myself so vulnerable & open, which terrifies me. but i'm ready & willing to face my fears for you. i hate the uncertainty, not knowing where you & me will stand a month, a year, or however long from now. but i guess that's the enticing part too. i can usually predict things with accuracy, but the unexpected always occurs when it comes to you.